2014.01.21 A Weary Smile

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One of those silly-but-poignant moments happened tonight, when the whole family was in the kitchen - dancing to Cheap Trick. Another long day had left us all weary - me from work and hauling kids to-and-from daycare, the kids from a full day of being cared for by strangers bracketed by being trapped in a car, and the wife from work and being (as ever) the only one with the wherewithal to make dinner for us all. But for a moment, that didn't have to dictate who we are. Violet bounced in my arms, bright-eyed, as I bobbed and mommy shimmied and Simon rocked-out.

We are generally pretty burned out. Enthusiasm is transmuted from drips of ego-strength and shreds of dignity, but all we ever seem to actually seek are a few minutes here and there to just relax. It is crazy-making to be cramming a fulfilling full-time job into the same life with raising rapidly-developing youngsters. Simon is already reading, and getting a feel for the contradictions of wanting to accomplish things on his own while simultaneously wanting things done for him. Violet's transition into a toddler has left her prone to rages as her default reaction to everything uncertain.

Every day one of us wonders aloud how hard it is to keep doing this. Every day, one of us acknowledges that these are almost certainly the "Golden Days".

Life is good.